So Who's The Skinny Diva and Who's The Fatch Chick and Which One Are You?

That's like asking if Dr Jekyl and Mr. Hyde were the same man. The Skinny Diva is that strong, confident woman inside of all of us. She appears when we have the courage to tap into her energy and become her. She doesn't put up with all the crap that society puts on her. She's free to be herself and feels comfortable in her own skin. And she's not afraid to know the truth. She makes time for herself and she knows what she wants and needs and how to maintain her sanity. So why and how did she get eaten? Funny you should ask.

For me it was falling into a rut. And ruts REALLY suck!!! You don't even see them coming. It happens gradually over time. Little by little, one small decision after another. I was never prepared to admit that until recently. I made each compromise and sacrafice until one day I looked in the mirror and didn't even know who I was any more. I had lost me. I had blown up to just over 300 pounds. How did THAT happen??? Oh there were lots and lots of warning signs along the way. I certainly ignored them. Living in Denial always seems easier...you know? I put sacrifice and service to others and my family before me. Every time we got busy, it was fast food to go. Every time I was too tired to cook, I'd pop something awful from a freezer box into the microwave. Every time I was lonely because my husband was working too many late night hours, I'd bake cookies for the kids' lunches and eat half of them with a glass of milk. It was small choices here and there that made me turn to food. Not just sadness, but with everything. And with each bite, I was consumed by her. And eventually she ate me whole and I became "The Fat Chick". The Big Fat Truth is that it doesn't have to be that way.

Introductions Please!!!

Okay, so here's The Big Fat Truth......I've been contemplating a blog for a long, long, VERY long time and have just been too lazy, tired, busy or preoccupied to get started. Yeah, yeah, yeah. WHATEVER!!! Blah, blah, blah.

So here I am, a 38 year old morbidly obese (I hate those words) mommy of a precious 3 yr. old princess and CEO wife of a very successful busy, busy entrepreneur. My life is crazy! Full of madness and absolutely NO schedule. I come from a wacky pack brand of looney toon relatives and the list goes on and on. As you can read, my life to this point has been full of excuses. And excuses...., quite frankly, have gotten me nowhere. So recently I had that moment, you know.... the one where the light bulb goes "bing!!!!" and all of a sudden you can see EVERYTHING in your life that's wrong and you see clearly the reasons why. Well my moment, (which I shall share later) struck me so hard to the very core that all I could do was cry..... for DAYS AND DAYS!!! I cried. And I realized for the first time that everything that I have blamed on everyone else for so long that was wrong in my life is and has been because of ME!!!! Because I LET IT BE that way. Shame on ME!!!! And the tears fell and fell. So with the beginning of this blog is the beginning of a new me and a journey that I hope you will take too as we go along.

So let's start our journey together and realize that WE are the only thing stopping ourselves from achieving our dreams. Whatever they may be. Nothing can stop us... not excuses, fear, laziness or uncertainty. Let the journey begin.